In a vulnerebellious moment — when you feel empowered to act in spite of the resistance in your body — I said “Hello” to someone I thought I recognised and magic unfolded… — “I think he’s off the TV” I said to myself which was immediately followed by, “Why would he want to talk to you? He’s going to think you’re only speaking to him because he’s famous.” The truth was that I was about to run a men’s circle at a festival…

The song, “Sorry is the Hardest Word,” says it all. Turns out, for me, it is/was. — In a moment of playfulness, I brushed my partner’s hair and it was the trigger that flipped us into, what Sue Johnson calls, a “Demon dialogue”. A conversation where the thing that happened isn’t the thing that’s causing the upset. Both people have actually been triggered and you are essentially…

Letting go isn’t easy but in doing so it develops our faith muscles. — My partner went to leave on Monday for a retreat but due to situations outside of her control, her flight was missed. She was devastated and called me up in absolute bits. I was proud to be able to hold her in her emotional spiral but not get sucked in…

Sometimes you’ve just got to start, or do you? — Motivation has been lacking, wading through the emotional aftermath of having a party weekend. My partner and I went to Boomtown Festival. It’s a festival that’s a tad hedonistic. Essentially the Wild West of Winchester. I find it’s important for me to occasionally “let the wheels fall off” as I…

Risks aren’t easy but they certainly pay off at times… — The catalyst was both my partner and I’s desire to individually grow by putting the effort into what it takes to be in a conscious relationship. A conscious is a relationship that’s created purposefully, decisively, and with intention. At points, they are not easy. They require staying in and open…

It’s wise to create a container of safety before stepping into the unknown… — “Should I feel jealous right now or is this me being avoidant / numbing out again?” is a question that’s been on my mind this past week. I think the answer I keep coming to is, “I’m not jealous” but because that’s not how my reaction used to be, or…

The key is understanding ourselves more deeply… — A sentence I say a lot is, “Freedom comes when we can choose to respond as opposed to react to people and situations in life.” The key word there is choose. Feeling there’s a choice about something = whatever it is feels less scary. Having the ability to choose how…

The signal to follow when waters get choppy. — Recently, I turned a pyramid into a sailboat. Well, not literally. I discovered a new way to look at my needs. Sunday I went out for a roast with my family for my mum’s birthday. I felt great on the way there but on the way back I had a…

Time is required to recalibrate and accept love… — I’m writing this with a sense my body is getting used to feeling more love. It’s been another week of ups and downs sometimes feeling like I’m staring into the abyss of not having a f ing clue about what I’m doing or where I’m going. The moments aren’t that…